GOLD!!!!!!!
we got a GOLD!!!
haha.
it's finally sinking in.
haha..
yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bleah

everything was so happy.
and SHE had to come and spoil the mood.
whatever man.
like hello.
it doesnt concern you at all lor
and what are you getting so worked up for?

sighz.
i think im totally nothing.
nothing to her at all.
just this THING that listens to your ideas.
and then lend you money
and then when it comes to the real thing,
I VANISH.
i really really totally disappear lor
she didnt even BOTHER to say bye bye to me.
how smart.
HOW comforting
maybe i should stop all this
maybe i should stop having high hopes
it'll just be disappointing in the end.
i'll just accept myself as that thing
be glad that at least she finds some use in me.
im so HOPELESS
so USELESS
no wonder im nth to her
cos i dunnoe anything at all
and im this irritating thing that goes from buggin everybody
thorn in the flesh
maybe i should just get rid of myself
GOOD RIDDANCE man.
go away man
cant you just see that you're being unwanted here?

WHATEVER.